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Category: Quote me

Cheers to Tears

Sometimes you just need a good cry. The kind that comes from the deep dark patches of your soul filled with all of the pent up things you’ve been attempting to avoid. 

When it happens be sure to determine the reason behind the tears, accept them, and move forward.

There is no growth without reflection. 

Cheers to tears,

ACovie

I Am Woman, Roar with me!

I’m thinking about this heavily as it has been wearing on my heart for some time now.  I’ve been unable to understand this feeling of displacement and its full extent.  This time last year I was a different woman.  I was confident and abnormally excited to conquer the world.  I made one of, if not the largest decision of my life to move to a brand new city and advance my career.

As I am sitting here tonight watching inspirational women talk about the need for women to be brave and take chances and I am reminded of my soul’s core.  The different woman that I was a year ago was an advocate for women chasing their dreams, reaching their goals, and being courageous. The woman I am now is timid. It’s a reality I am willing to admit but am immediately working to change.  I’ve allowed external vices to beat down that once confident woman looking to take on the world.  The most challenging factor to swallow with this realization is that another woman has aided in bringing me to this point.

We as women have an unspoken obligation to lift the morale of other women.  It is our duty to motivate and encourage each other rather than discouraging and knocking down women surrounding us to ‘get to the top’.  We need to come together and utilize each others abilities to reach our full potential.  Competition is good, and healthy to the right extent.  But women in the work place already have a bad name for being too emotional and there is already a stigma that we are unable to handle power.  My recent experiences have proven just that and it saddens me.  How are we as a gender supposed to overcome stereotypes if we are willing to demolish the spirits of the women surrounding us?  How does that make us any better than the cliché we are trying to surpass.

I’m upset with myself for allowing another person to defeat my spirits. But moreover I am upset that another woman has had to audacity to dismember my confidence and self worth solely because of the position she upholds.

I am rekindling my desire to inspire other women.  I am revitalizing the fire from within that motivates me to not only be a better woman but to share that desire with any women willing to listen.  I’m challenging myself to be brave, to be courageous, and to chase my dreams while inspiring others to do the same.

The real question is, who’s coming with me?

-ACovie

Shadows & Sunshine

Shadows and Sunshine

I haven’t visited in some time
Likely out of fear
Fear for my reality
The changes
Painstakingly necessary
Undoubtedly unavoidable

This presence has frightened me
The in depth realism
To opening the gates
Again
To what was once bliss
No longer

Within the sunshine
Comes shadows
You can’t appreciate rays
Without some darkness
Oh how I’ve missed you
Warmth of my mind

I welcome your return
and acknowledge
You’ll again leave
and my avoidance
Will reestablish
Until my next awakening

-ACovie

Think About It #5

Expression is an essential component of sanity.

-ACovie

Aspirations

I aspire
To inspire
Driven
To live in
A world that elevates
Negotiates
Logically and thoughtfully
Without ignorance
Or inference

Unafraid
To say
Taking the time
Before chiming in
To realize
Within words what actually lies

Understand
Outside dreamland
What’s real
Consider the depth
How people feel
With consideration
Of sensitivity
But reality
Of actuality

-ACovie

Late Night Thought X18

The ultimate goal is finding your partner in life that wants to do,experience, and conquer all of the same things you do. I’m reminded of this every time I spend time with my father. He, his wife, and his friends have more fun doing absolutely nothing because they simply love life for all of the same reasons. I want to find the love that that people envy. I refuse to have anything less than just that. If I stab myself in the foot and end up alone, so be it. I want my best friend, my co-pilot, my ultimate partner to conquer, love, live, and experience this life for all it is. 

Light bulb night. The best nights. 

-ACovie 

Evaluate | Relate | Re-Evaluate

“Oh why, oh why do they teach us Shakespeare
When we’re only 16, with no idea, what it all means
Oh Romeo, oh Romeo he thinks it’s a love thing
All masks and kisses from the balcony
It’s deeper than that though, it’s a fuckin’ tragedy”

Shakespeare by Fink

—-

I allowed myself to get wrapped up, although I have continued to promised myself I’d quit.  I’ve made this promise before.  I’ve broken this promise in the past.  I experienced that unfortunate sadness that comes along with opening up, and although it may only be brief it reminds me how horrible that feeling is.  It’s astonishing how powerful the heart can be.  The brain is mighty,  but in my case, the heart typically wins.

I have this vision of charging forward through life, strong, and alone.  That’s not in a depressing sense but ideally I’d be okay with that.  My venture is unbelievably strong when I’m completely on my own.  My vision is clear, concise, and I am making all moves necessary to achieve it. Until the clouds roll in.  The brain fog starts to seep up from the heart just as someone begins to claim it.

I promised myself the strength to consider yours truly first, always. The difference now is, I actually do.  Even when I am teetering hundreds of feet above what I feel could be a blissful fall, I stagger.  The idea of expressing and not receiving is deceiving.  And finding the meaning behind another souls words can be devastating.  Also, avoided.  Should we know instinctively when to jump?  Will our conscience with equal balance of heart and mind give us the push when it’s time to dive?

Here I am contemplating, debating, and appreciating all in the same thought the idea of what it would be like to really have my someone.  The real question is in all of this:  How willing am I to get hurt?

– ACovie

Late Night Thought X16

  
“The most subtle moments can bring clarity to the assorted misconceptions within everyday life.”

-ACovie

Photo by: ACovie 

Think About It #4

Do you care what people think?
Absolutely not. Only the ones who matter. 
Think about it. 

-ACovie

The Reset – Reality 

  
Reflective Saturday 

Reality, I’m here to stay 

Strolls through the city

Over which I’ve been so giddy 

This dream come true

So long overdue

Overwhelming sadness

Ideological madness

Verity in this decision

Pause in revision

The fast track

To all the boxes unpacked

Arrived at a standstill

Forced to absorb my fill

This decision I’ve shaped

My old life I’ve escaped

It’s authentic

Most moments virtually hallucinagenic

An elaborate cocktail

Of adventurous, anxious, brave, and frail 

No constant one second to the next

My introspection indefinitely complex

I cant disengage

This mental cage

This roller coaster of emotion

From what I’ve chosen

I wouldn’t change the circumstance

Accompanying this urban romance

Harnessing these feelings

Appreciating these dealings

For the day I reflect

And think, now what’s next?

-ACovie