I’m thinking about this heavily as it has been wearing on my heart for some time now. I’ve been unable to understand this feeling of displacement and its full extent. This time last year I was a different woman. I was confident and abnormally excited to conquer the world. I made one of, if not the largest decision of my life to move to a brand new city and advance my career.
As I am sitting here tonight watching inspirational women talk about the need for women to be brave and take chances and I am reminded of my soul’s core. The different woman that I was a year ago was an advocate for women chasing their dreams, reaching their goals, and being courageous. The woman I am now is timid. It’s a reality I am willing to admit but am immediately working to change. I’ve allowed external vices to beat down that once confident woman looking to take on the world. The most challenging factor to swallow with this realization is that another woman has aided in bringing me to this point.
We as women have an unspoken obligation to lift the morale of other women. It is our duty to motivate and encourage each other rather than discouraging and knocking down women surrounding us to ‘get to the top’. We need to come together and utilize each others abilities to reach our full potential. Competition is good, and healthy to the right extent. But women in the work place already have a bad name for being too emotional and there is already a stigma that we are unable to handle power. My recent experiences have proven just that and it saddens me. How are we as a gender supposed to overcome stereotypes if we are willing to demolish the spirits of the women surrounding us? How does that make us any better than the cliché we are trying to surpass.
I’m upset with myself for allowing another person to defeat my spirits. But moreover I am upset that another woman has had to audacity to dismember my confidence and self worth solely because of the position she upholds.
I am rekindling my desire to inspire other women. I am revitalizing the fire from within that motivates me to not only be a better woman but to share that desire with any women willing to listen. I’m challenging myself to be brave, to be courageous, and to chase my dreams while inspiring others to do the same.
The real question is, who’s coming with me?